Thank you Simon and Garfunkel for the reference.

So I have a friend… At this point in my life a friend that I am closest to and that I share the most scary and intimate points of my life with. I don’t know what I would do without them.

However… they have an addiction problem. And it’s really hard.

Watching them struggle is incredibly difficult. Like, you want to know the solution to making things better. You want to know the solution to help. But it’s not that simple. Before COVID I convinced them to go in for treatment and I spent the better part of 24 hours getting them in to a facility and then visiting them several times a week. I feel like no one else cared enough. When you’re going through tough times like that you need someone to care enough. And things got better for a while.

But then COVID hit. With all its isolation. With all its disconnection. With all its work from homeness – which isn’t great for everyone. And stuff has gone downhill since then. They’re back in person at their job but they haven’t recovered from the stress of COVID.

So what to do? I have no fucking idea. I wish to gods I did. We have done what we can providing a safe space where they can crash, providing a safe space where they can vent, providing a safe space where they can reach out to when they’re in a bad place. I know there is nothing more I can do. But that doesn’t stop me from wanting to have something more I can do.

So I feel in a bad, sad space right now…