I went to bed last night at almost midnight with a pit of apprehension in my stomach. I woke up at 4am to be slapped in the face with the greatest of all my fears coming true. Another four years of staring into the abyss and wondering what fresh hell awaits us.

I couldn’t go back to sleep, I was too upset and unsettled and shocked and overwhelmed. Dave started texting me around 7am and that conversation started the flood gates. I cried from 7 to about 9, while talking to Dave and wishing like hell I wasn’t 5 hours away from him right at this moment. I was absolutely on the verge of a panic attack and I really needed him with me. My timing for this trip was not well thought out.

And the presidential election COMBINED with the GOP getting the majority in the Senate….. I am UTTERLY TERRIFIED of what these next few years hold for the many people I know and love. And all those people who STUPIDLY thought this fascist, misogynistic, narcissistic, self-absorbed man child had their best interest at heart – boy do they have a rude awakening coming. He doesn’t give a shit about you because you have no money and no influence. He duped you into getting him elected and now he doesn’t need you anymore, so bye-bye, so long, go fuck yourself.

I had hoped and prayed we wouldn’t wake up in a Dystopia today, but it didn’t work out that way. Best all we can do is hold onto each other tight and do all we can to get through to the other side in one piece. For those living in fear and despair and depression and anger and betrayal…. I feel you, and I’m with you. I got you, you got me. We’re gonna figure this shit out.