Year: 2018

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Imagine Better

So this post might seem a little fan girlish at first, but I’ll ask you to stick with me because I truly feel it’s more than that. About a year ago I went to my first Imagine Dragons concert. I’d heard their songs, because I live in a first world country and occasionally turn on […]

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Actions Don’t Speak, They Scream

As you might expect, the process of working Dave/Davie’s gender fluidity into our lives has been difficult.  It’s a lot for us to understand, figure out, adjust to – – so it’s bound to be hard for others, too. I get that. I don’t fault people for finding it awkward, or even uncomfortable – it is. I […]

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The Present of Presence

Most human beings have an almost infinite capacity for taking things for granted. ~Aldous Huxley [This post is definitely going to be considered TMI by some folks, so please feel free to opt out now if any mention of intimacy, no matter how generalized and vanilla, gives you the creeps.] I’ve been doing a lot of […]

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Old Dog Doesn’t Like Your Tricks

My husband Dave and I have been together for 22 years, married for almost 19 of those. Despite the fact that I travel for work, we’ve spent no more than 6 days apart, and that was once. The work trips tend to be only 3-4 days. And it’s kind of pitiful, but I don’t know how […]

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No Parent, No Child, No PERSON Should Know This Fear

Note:  I want to be able to boost this post, so it can’t have any profanity in it. This is VERY hard because this topic deserves f-bombs about every other sentence. Feel free to add them mentally as you read.   I believe in serendipity. I’ve been listening to podcasts again lately and while it […]

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This Review Brought To You By Psychiatric Medication

I’ve worked as an administrator in academic hospital medicine for 15 years.  I started as just a secretary but through the luck of having an awesome practice leader and boss who cared about what I was capable of and not what piece of paper I did (or didn’t) have, I was quickly able to move […]

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Appreciation Is Blind

I’ve decided to finally give you that funny post I’ve been promising, this one in honor of it being the Sunday of GenCon (where l am not, again – – seven years is a long time, darn it! Dang kids!) GenCon was really a big thing for my friends back in the day when we […]

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Mommy Dearest

Since I’m in the habit of saying things here that I would never say outloud because I know people will judge the bejeezes out of me – why not continue the trend? Today’s subject as I drive towards my child who’s been away for a week with his cousins: Parenthood. For those of you just […]

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Be Careful What You Wish For

So, I’ve been away a little while. Okay, I’ve been away a long while, sheesh. I could use the excuse of you know, like, LIFE and that whole having to work for a living thing, and all that stuff, but nobody cares about my tiny violin.   So never mind about all that, there’s been some […]

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Words Matter

With the suicides of Kate Spade a few days ago and now Anthony Bourdain today, I was reminded of something I heard some moron media person-thingy say a while back. He referred to the fact that the suicide of a celebrity is often followed by an uptick in other suicides as “Copycat Suicides.” I want to find that asshole and PUNCH HIM IN […]

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Call The CDC

I’m not an Infectious Disease doctor, or a Virologist, or a Zombie-fiction author, yet I have made the discovery of the century — despite everything previously believed to be true, it turns out depression is contagious. I am sure you are scoffing. But then all geniuses and their great discoveries were mocked in the beginning. So […]

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My Bio

This describes pretty much every aspect of my personality – it’s better than a Barbara Walter’s interview… Hope you enjoy meeting me. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-secret-lives-introverts/201805/15-signs-youre-introvert-high-functioning-anxiety?utm_source=Heleo+Daily+Digest&utm_campaign=168157a380-EMAIL_CAMPAIGN_2017_01_10&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_1651f20312-168157a380-216753321&mc_cid=168157a380&mc_eid=5366280356

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When Am I The “Grown-up”?

I think we all look at people who are older than us and think of them as the grown-ups and wonder when we’ll be ‘grown-up.’ But it doesn’t seem to matter how old I get, I always still feel like the “not-a-grown-up.” And that ends up making me feel like I’m screwing up in some […]

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A Few Recommendations For Your Library

I started paying for Kindle Unlimited about a year ago as a (significant) cost-saving way to support my insatiable book habit. I’ve been able to read a lot of cool books I’ve found there, and following authors on Twitter has introduced me to even more cool stuff. So I thought I’d share (you’re welcome)! The […]

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One Year of Love

I will just have to hope Queen doesn’t sue me for ripping off the title of one of their songs. (Hey Queen, it was the “first dance” at my wedding – does that make it better?) So… April 9th One year ago today I decided that the world would be better off without me. By […]

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Decisions, Decisions

I’m not someone who generally suffers from decision paralysis. Like, I never understood people who took forever to take a test – you either know the answer or you don’t, so answer it or just guess and move the hell on already. But for the past month or so I’ve been waffling more than a […]

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A Little Light Reading

Thought I’d share a little something I wrote a while back as a wedding gift. Hope you enjoy it!   The Briar and the Birch written January, 2011 Once upon a time there was a Briar Vine and a Birch Tree who fell in love. The Briar Vine wound its way gently up and around […]

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Regression Towards the Mean

I haven’t been feeling very damned funny lately. Between the shooting, and work stress, and this stupid screwed up shoulder, and a nice helping of depression with a side of exhaustion…. I am not a bucket of laughs right now. And that’s kept me from writing for almost a month now because I figure people […]

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In Memory

I very rarely post about anything political, here or anywhere else on social media. I very rarely even engage in discussions in person about such things. I have generally found that if someone disagrees with you, it’s rare to never that is going to change, so you’re just playing with pigs and pigeons. And the […]

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Zombie Sleepover

“Sleep like the dead”… I’ve always thought this phrase sounded like the worst thing ever. Why would anyone want to sleep like the dead? I mean, the dead don’t wake up ever. Me? Like it or not, I’m more of a “sleep like the undead” kind of gal. You know – shuffling around all uncoordinated, drooling on myself, […]

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Why Is It So Hot, And Why Am I In This Basket?

I don’t remember doing it, but apparently I pissed in the Universe’s Cheerios. Or I was a very bad, BAD person in a former life. Or I broke a mirror. Or something… Because this week has freaking sucked. I am utterly convinced that I am not allowed to have nice things. It seems like every […]

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Petting My Peeves 3: People Suck

So I’m back again to bitch about stuff that annoys me. Today: Personality Traits That Piss Me Off Mansplaining: Before a bunch of guys start jumping all over my shit for this, I get that women can do this too, and I get that not all guys do it. But there is DEFINETLY a population […]

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Tell Me A Story

I’ve been reading a lot lately. I follow a lot of authors – known and less known – on Twitter, so I’ve been reading a lot of their stuff. And recently I picked up an old “best friend” that I haven’t read in years, Dreams Underfoot by Charles Delint. And that is when I really noticed […]

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Hello Darkness My Old Friend

So I feel kind of bad… after leaving all of you high and dry for over a week with no new posts, now I’m not even going to give you a fun, light-hearted story about killer bunnies or mugger macaws. This one’s damn serious and dark, but I need to get it off my chest. This post does […]

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Flocking Together

I’m at it again. Off on another work trip. So there’s A Story. There’s always A Story when I’m allowed to go off on my own  – see my prior two assassination-related posts. At least there were no death attempts this time, only attempts at theft and minor bodily harm. I see this as a step […]

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A Very Meta New Year

It’s not at all uncommon for me to have strange dreams. They tend to be very vivid, and they tend to tell a story. But the story is always a little “Alice Through the Looking Glass ” – everything’s a little weird and jumps around in strange ways that theoretically makes sense in Dreamland, but […]

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